Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Relying on God, the Father

Hello. Blog. It's been a long time. My life is changed again. I have been thinking of writing very often, but I didn't know when the right time would reveal itself. But, here it is. The last few months have been challenging in new, wonderful and terrible ways.

We had some lovely holidays, and on New Year's Day, I discovered that I was/am pregnant. And, we're thrilled. Although that creates it's own challenges, I'm looking forward to having our second child. And, I'm 16 weeks along, and happy to be out of the first trimester. I can only say/write thankful things as it was absolutely delightful compared to my pregnancy with Ryan. So, we're heading for a new bundle of joy, and I'm so grateful to be blessed with another gift from God. All healthy so far, and my journey this time is planning on being much changed from my first. No hospital, no doctor (persay), and no interventions. I'm definitely scared, but I believe this will be an amazing experience for my second time around.

Not two weeks later after this, we discovered that my dad had a mass in his pancreas. And, he was later diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I was in shock and sad as well as finding myself in a great deal of prayer to God. God, Jesus, and the holy spirit- And, a visit followed to Tennessee whereas new challenges and difficulties surfaced. Seeing my dad suffering and starving for life is so hard. And, as I've seen cancer in another loved one, I'm worried and scared for my Dad.

So far, that's what I feel I can write. But, all in all, I'm thankful. I'm happy that I have my dad to call and talk to when I need. And, I am in need of writing- to express all these things inside my head. So, here's to a start.

1 comment:

Jessica Zelenko said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Sending you love and support.